take this to heart.

Cause I'm a mess and you know that I can't help it

The drive home never seemed this long before

Killing time just a little bit faster

And I swear we'll make it

But I can't tell you what I don't know

The simple things, they make my heart go

"Be mine tonight"

But you'll have to wait

You said it hurts and you know that I believe you

Searching every little thing to find a way

To tell your heart just to wait a little longer

I swear we'll make it

Stay Safe, Stay strong

And let me know that you'll be here when I am gone

Because I'm coming home

Coming home tonight

Let's get this right

I said I'm coming home

Coming home tonight

One more night

And we'll go spinning around the room

And dance with our hearts on fire

Cause every song is ours tonight

And if you love me so

I'm gonna to tell the whole world

That it's greatest thing that happened to me

I finally found a good reason to come home

Coming home tonight

"your arms could be my home"

Bibi

We were at the waterfront..

i'll miss this

hmmmmmmmmm~ wan is a loser.

pointin' up sky high.

who's this.

Vict's graduation day.

Kahjong and Michelle in ethnic costumes.

haha. our punjab friend... he went Singapore. benci lah.... haha

the mile after

Oh my teddy pouch. haha.

what's with that look huh?

Aqua sumthing.. ballet?

This candid don't look so bad at all.

haha. family portrait.

uh.. two washed up whales.

hehe.

we are the awesomeness.

there's a dead fish behind us.. so put your legs out. HAHA. wth

mwahs<3

We pulled up, our coats on...

cause once we get out, it'll be

the only way we have of staying warm,

my thoughts were left at the back door,

you slipped on them, hit the wood floor

and foolishly, I helped you up,

and carried you to the stairs, but they

broke from the weight of our conversation,

we fell through the ground and into the basement,

the laundry broke our fall, strategically placed

because I planned on this the night before.

so you wait a few days

before you take it off

cause it all feels so strange

without our pictures on your wall

because I belong to you

and you belong to me

and thats the way it should be

we took off our coats

cause we finally realized

that it's not the weather

that was making us feel cold.

my thoughts still left at the back door

and you still bothering me for

not looking you straight in the eyes,

but I'm not this time,

so I looked right through

you to the passing trees

and focused on just one,

you asked 'why is everything

so different after dark?'

I told you this once, but

you took it with a grain of salt

...because sometimes you are completely clueless of how amazing you really are

Shazuan Jaini is a Shazasaurus.

is still awesome.

*******

the answer lies in a lovely sound.

That's why I'd give anything I have to work this out

A mess it grows.

To all you guys.. I'm sorry for blurting too much on you guys. I have my dilemmas and stuff. I've been keeping my thoughts for too long and you guys were the few people i trust to blurt on.. Expressing my thoughts might have been too much on you guys or might be quite irritating because this has nothing to do with you guys. Haha.. however, i'd like to thank you so much for listening and keeping it as a secret. haha. well i know you guys talk about it sometimes but yeah.. thanks anyways. Can't stop you guys anyways.. hahaha

I wruff you<3

Holidays coming.

We'll be away.

i wonder..

God knows.

God knows how complicated my life can be.. yes i do have problems. sometimes are incomparable from others.. but we have our own ways of dealing them and it has their own ways of giving you burdens.. which in the end results is depression, paranoia and insecurities.. well, my ways of dealing them is just to not think about them too much.. i tend to spend my time with the best-est people in my life. sorry, i don't believe in the term best friends anymore because they just never exist. They never cease to come and go. So anyways, i spend my time to my current cool friends and this special ones to make problems slip my mind once in awhile.. I dislike sharing them because i don't wanna drag them deep into my problems.. but then blurting out bit by bit won't do any harm though. However, i can be a good listener you know. I know they sometimes blurt out to me because they don't wanna keep it too long.. it'll just make them depressed.. so i am here for any of you.. but i sometimes question myself.. will it be enough just to listen.. it would be great to give advise... but then sometimes i am unable to provide any.. i feel so useless sometimes.. but then i'll learn one or two eventually..

So then.. whaz been happenin' guys?

HAHA. so far.. i don't know what thinking now. it feels different now. i wonder what's gonna happen this holiday.. Of course i still wanna give it try but then what if.. things change.. what if next year someone new comes in.. what if i'll be ignored.. what if i'll be ditched again.. oh rejection.. why do you have to be so painful.. but this time.. i'll be waiting for a solid answer..

A yes or A no.

Meteor Shower.

the classic crime.

There's always a lot of things i couldn't do..

i couldn't give you my shoulder for you to cry on.

i couldn't hold your hands when you feel left out.

i couldn't wrap my hands around you when you feel cold or alone.

i couldn't stare you long enough to tell you how i feel.

i couldn't whisper to you anything whenever i feel like telling you.

i couldn't shed your tears when you're sad.

i couldn't tell what you are thinking about.

i couldn't do anything to keep you feeling content.

i couldn't help but thinking that I'm not good enough to keep you forget all the matters that matters too much in your life.

Forgive me.

to see you cry pains me.

i can only keep hoping that i'd be the one who'd be able to carve a smile on your face.

to keep your mind clear.

to give you doses of laughter.

The thoughts.. the thoughts..

Because I was broken hearted at the time and you were all I had to keep me from having the mini breakdowns in my head.

Yellow Flower

Printed behind a clear cd jacket

No one else knows

but you and me

These long months i sit here

And listen

Baby I dont just hear

I listen

To those voices sing ever so soft

I sway to 'em sweet sounding harmonies

Away from that bitter bite harming me

As I close my eyes

For once ill close my eyes tonight

I've stared at that blank white ceiling

Wishing I was numb from this feeling

But not tonight

So stay calm and steady

For I can feel Something Real

so wont you tell me

just what u think

i am no masterpiece at all

cos i swear everytime im there

those those arms will catch me right before i fall

i'm sorry.. all i can do is just hope to be there for you always..

so what are you thinking..

lessons in romantics

This is me. Wanwan in Chibi mode.

This is me and Bibi Gossiping while in Chibi mode.

Harmonica Melodica

HayeeelllllllEE~~

This is stupid.. you know i should be studying. 9am later i have Maths exams.. i think it's easy.. because my brain's been working okay with those alien language.. haha. plus the indian lecturer is awesome, she doesnt care if i say don't want to do a question that i dont like. HAHA. but eventually i'd do it. i even said to her, "MISS SHERIN!!! I HATE MATRIX INVERSION!!!"

hahaha.

So, should i start studyin now? i don't have any coffee to keep me up.. i seriously need to study.. i know if i fail this Contract Admin paper i wouldnt care.. because it's freaking confusing.. i dont like memorizing the answers you know.. im the type who wants to understand the texts.. so hard liao..

i wish i was smart enough to print my own money without getting caught.. HAHA. so sudden. wth. random random..

i wonder if there's a country before our time that dont pronounce the words they speak but to spell each word they want to project. HAAHAH. like

A-P-A!!?

HAHA. goodnight.

Wasubi<3

this guitar won't make sound but it's okay.

exams. exams.

i hate you.

<3

the power of curiosity.

A lovely sound.

I just love the songs that sings my thoughts..

I just love the songs that sings my thoughts..

I just love the songs that sings my thoughts..

I just love the songs that sings my thoughts..

I just love the songs that sings my thoughts..

I just love the songs that sings my thoughts..

I just love the songs that sings my thoughts..

I just love the songs that sings my thoughts..

I just love the songs that sings my thoughts..

a day to remember.

blablablablabla.

I've not much to say. I have no more Mojo to update my blog.. but i don't wanna give up blogging because i kinda wanna keep this up til I'm 60 years old when all laptops are as thin as papers. hahah. wth.

Today i went to the barrage with Hensly, Lala and Babyana. Before that, We went to SCR to get lunch because Bby hadn't eaten and earlier before i told her i didn't wanna eat but i could accompany her if she wants.. but in the end, i ended up ordering chicken rice coz.. i like to eat.. not very good answer (i know) hahaha. Hormones i guess? hahaha. wth. Lala gave me this weird ginseng and coffee candy which gave me a headache.. oh god.. people actually eat that.. it taste soo bad and it's suppose to boost up Men's energy.. WHY THE HELL DID EAT SUCH CANDY?? that was weird... i thought it was kinda like mentos or sumthin because it says "MenTalk" on the wrapper.. oh gawd... such an awful experience..

Anyways, we took great pictures at the barrage.. i'll be uploading most of it here..i guess.. but before that..

Here's what i feel.

long to taste adventure like the nature of the sea,

Always moving, always hiding all the creatures from beneath.

Singing silent songs of sadness my heart waits for its chance,

To dance upon the ashes of my burned up little plans.

And I stand alone before the night.

My nakedness is so clear in the glow of the moonlight.

Life is old but so short.

We are young we want more.

My addiction to danger like the rush of the sea,

Like a wave on the rocks the lessons crash down on me.

I don't need to prove the world to you only to myself.

So step back and look away as I dive into the swell.

So take me down to the river like a little child,

and take my hand and tell me it's ok to be wild,

I never knew the world until I saw it through your eyes,

I never knew myself until I ripped off my disguise

I'm drowning, but I don't care,

Because when you got what I got, what I got

who needs air?

You don't need air.

I have come to the realization that life is more than what I have accomplished.

And life is more then the realization that we have accomplished nothing at all.

True success is so selfless so drown in the lyrics of your life

and give up the air that you breathe.

You don't need anything. You don't need anything

I don't need air

hi

Daydreamer.

Striking White Stripes

Oh the Vivid Colored Love.

They're silhouette

Mine and Hers?

BABY BESAR!

Three IDIYOTS!

Si boyot kami

One finger between us means.. apa oh?

headlights<3

pendek.

me in skinnies. shocking..

hi.

i like this one.

x)

it's funny that things never turn out what we expect it to be.. at first, you hoped it to be working well.. in the midst of it.. you tend to realize that it seem like it's leading you to an epic fail *this is my situation so it doesn't apply to everyone who doesn't know how to get over things*.. but sometimes, after the failure.. things tend come to a brighter and better side.. it makes you feel happier than before.. makes you feel more content than ever.. makes you forget the failure just had recently.. makes you forget the bad days you had before.. giving you a boost of confidence everyday..

We don't usually get want we want but bear in mind.. sometimes, the result from our failed efforts could give you a life time happiness...

so yeah.. a small lesson learnt from your little mistake could give you a life time of happiness.

Well that's what i think..

Happiness takes time but i know it's worth the wait..

Bersusah2 dahulu, senang kemudian..

p/s : FUCK YOU ORANG HITAM!

hi.

Hey everyone.

hey you.

I'm not sure what to update but i'll be as random as possible.. so, today, i was a bit pissy because those effing org hitam never put any effort to keep the INTIMA office tidy. There are always rubbish on the floor every time these people come in. I wonder if their parents ever taught them how to keep their place clean, i bet not.. i bet they shit every where from the kitchen to the living room.. These hitams shitfaces dress up so neat that they even litter everywhere to make themselves look neater. LIKE WHAT THE FUCK MAN! Have you no shame? not only you people are rude.. you make the place look like dirt and you people keep talking behind our backs like we're the ones making the mess and making look like we're the jackasses.. WHAT THE HELL MAN! We do things like this to keep the discipline man.. We're not always pissed about you shitfuckers, just that you always make us pissed off about you. Why are your culture are always rude? Have you no manners towards our culture? Please.. You talk out loud like the ones you talk to is ten feet away from you. You laugh like a fucking freak bastard who just killed a little girl. PLEASE CHANGE FOR THE SAKE OF US! We are starting to ABHORS YOU! HATE YOU! YOU ARE STARTING TO DISGUST US!

What is your goal coming to Sarawak?? Are you here to get pussies to fuck? What the hell man.. You guys are deteriorating the girls in College man... Some of you even impregnate one of them and then ran away.. What the fuck eh you people. soooo PEKIMAK! Come to college as if it's a pussy factory.. I tell you this.. your PENISES are really a WEAPON OF MASS DESTRUCTION.. one trigger could destroy a whole community of girls. seriously men, i hope your dicks fall of and rots in your face. STAY AWAY FROM OUR LADIES PEKIMAKS!

PLEASE! HAVE YOUR SHOWERS DAILY MAN! ESPECIALLY THE ONES WHO WALKS TO COLLEGE. SHIZ MAN! CAN'T YOU SMELL YOURSELVES AFTER GOING THROUGH THE HOT SUN?? WITHOUT EVEN TAKING A SHOWER FIRST? HOLY FUCK MAN! YOU STINK SO THAT YOU COULD EVEN MAKE US HAVE BRAIN DAMAGES!